Yes! to Success!

Okay...so yesterday was a success...it went pretty much as planned......I went to the gym, got in a good work out and a good session in the steam room, then I met L and we had lunch at Chipotle.  By the time we got there I was very hungry.  I had only eaten an apple, and maybe a bit of green smoothie, and then had gone to the gym.  I had my favorite veggie fajita bowl, with no rice, a very little bit of pinto beans, some fresh salsa, some hot salsa, some corn salsa, some guacamole with lettuce.  And a bag of chips.  That was yum.  Then later I went over to my friend's house to do some full moon drumming but really more to talk....and I had a great time, then came home, hung out with L a it and then we went to bed.  The moon is full and beautiful.

And today, today I haven't even gotten out of my pajamas, which doesn't mean I haven't done anything, actually I've done a fair bit....but I didn't have a plan...didn't need to make one, I knew what I needed to do.  I went to the Soulful Woman Certficate Program and looked over all of the calls, the special recordings (meditations, Ariel Spilsbury, Angeles Arrien,etc) and the all of the handouts and downloaded to my desktop so they will be easily accessible.  And I listened to a great meditation by Ariel Spilsbury...I should listen to it daily.

I listened to the rest of the Manifest Everything Now call by Debra Poneman about her program, Yes! to Success.......and then I bought her program....and now I am listening to the recordings....and I got a big slap in the face....a big wake up splash of cold water.......as she said that this is what you need to do to transition to doing what you love to do.......and that is to go to your job, give it your all, do your best, because as the Maharishi Yoga said.....you need to deserve, then you can desire....you need to go to your work and do the most fabulous job, ask yourself, "What can I do to increase my service today...how can I contribute, how can I make this work place happier, more harmonious, more full of love?  "if you want greater rewards, perform greater service and the rewards will always come, because life is like a big apothecary scale with one bowl marked service and the other bowl marked rewards and  the more you put in the bowl marked service, life will reward you in the bowl marked rewards."   This made me start, as because I hadn't done that, at least not fully and completely. I know that, but I was wanting out, and I just wasn't sure how to do it as I didn't have a plan B.  I am working on developing a plan b, but the universe decided I was taking too long (and I was) and just threw me into the pool. 

But regardless of that situation, hearing Debra speak made me realize that I need to show up.  In my life.  At work, at home, everywhere.....and the reasons why I don't show up......well...they are there...and while I have been working on releasing emotions that I don't want to keep (worry, anxiety, fear, feeling of worthlessness, not being up to the task, etc) and I have been doing pretty good with that...I want to actually work on it much more once I get all of the materials...I need to show up.  That is my goal.  To make every day a conscious day, of working towards what I want.  And of doing my best in all parts of my life.  I am trying.  I am working it.  I think I did pretty well today.....I am happy with today.  And, I made cookies with my teenage son....he did about half of the work, and the cookies turned out quite well.  We made cut out cookies, using all of our cookie cutters....the starfish, the snowflake, the bat, the rhino, the saguaro, the jalapeno, the snowman, the 3 different kinds of Christmas trees, the stars, etc.  He asked if we could make chocolate chip cookies but since I had in mind cut out cookies and we didn't have any chocolate chips, we just made chocolate roll out cookies and flavored them with cocoa powder, cinnamon, almond extract, vanilla extract and a dash of brandy.  They are yum.  I am not eating anymore tonight, but just may have to hide some to make sure I get my share.

And today I had a green smoothie for breakfast, 2 large Cameo apples, 2 slices of sprouted grain toast with mayonnaise, a quinoa burger, 2 campari tomatoes slices, with some hot sauce, (this is my sandwich) and some spinach salad.  Later I had some cookie dough and some of the cookies...all made with the best ingredients (seriously, organic flour, coconut sugar, cane sugar, butter, eggs) all high quality...and we used about half of the sugar the receipe calls for...and since then....hmm..oh yes, I also had some of my tulsi, holy basil powder...I think I should take a bit less....but I can tell it does have a good effect.  And now I have to figure out what to have for dinner...everyone else is making homemade pizzas but while I may eat a slice or two...I really need to eat something else.  I think I might make a banana smoothie with some fresh bananas, frozen raspberries and mango and fresh kiwi.  With some canned coconut water, and some of my NuDe Nutrient Dense Acai protein powder...then we are going to watch a movie.

Tomorrow...what am I going to do tomorrow?  I need to start writing.  I need to make a plan, have a goal, a lofty goal, one that excites me, as well as little ones, like doing the writing, going to the gym again, wrapping Barb et al's presents, doing something to clean the house, maybe just clean one room, and listen to more of the Yes!to Sucess! recordings.

The plan is to maintain that Dalai Lama state of mind, that state of joy, that state of bliss...to just call it forth, to just own it, do it, be it...do everything with joy and love............that is my goal for tomorrow...to accomplish all of the above while maintaining a serene, calm, happy, joyful, state of mind.  all of the time, no matter what.....because when I do...miracles happen....everyday miracles, but miracles none the less and the more I practice that...and I have forgotten that today, I have been in a good space but not the dalai lama state of mind...that sustained serene,joyful state of mind.........here I go now...........this is my practice....

Transformation Still In Progress

I am still working on transformation and still running into blocks but I have new tools.  I have raw foods and juicing, fasting and veganism, I have the Soulful Woman's Certificate Program which is a 9 month program....but the clock is ticking...I need to make more use of it....I have the Crack Your Egg Program which has been very helpful but I don't think I can work it all the way through,.....and it is a very good program and an important piece of the puzzle, but I think I still need more pieces.  I also have the Life Work Compass Program, the Dream Weavers or some such program (about working with your actual dreams, but mine are hiding from me....) I have the Qi Gong Course, the Miracle Morning, the Manifest Everything Now webinars, the Belief Buster Kit from Aine (enya) Belton, Notes from the Universe, Mike Dooley's "Leveraging the Universe", and "Infinite Possibilities", Evelyn Lim's Life Vison Mastery, Christopher Tims, Tom Lescher "New Paradigm Astrology", I have my Dalai Lama state of mind, all of my books, I have lots of stuff....and last but not least I have the "Emotion Codes", which is another big piece of the puzzle, and I have met some great new friends....just perfect for me for where I am in my life right now..I am manifesting friends, and information and this just in......the Universe has just pushed me into the deep end of the pool.......as, get this....on 12-21-12 around (seriously this is very close to the exact time) 12:21 pm, I lost my job.  It was taken away.  No longer exists.   While this was actually not a huge surprise (as I can read the writing on the wall)....they had been taking pieces of my job away from me, gradually, over time, no wonder I kept kicking up a big fit, as on one level, I must have known.  Then I surrendered, and the end, when it did come, was peaceful.  I shed a few tears, made a sarcastic remark or two, but basically, I accepted reality, and even embraced it, as truth be told, I did not want the job, had not wanted it for quite a long time, I was leaning into the cutting of ties, and embracing was and remains the best course of action.

Of course, I have yet to burst this bubble of reality for my family......as it was just before Christmas, and why ruin everyone's Christmas, including my own...I am trying to envision a scenario in which my husband does not freak out, stress out, stress me out...where like Mr. Magoo, I walk blindly yet confidently off the end of the beam, and lo and behold, another beam appears out of nowhere and I do not fall........but continue merrily on my way.  I can do this....but convincing my husband of this in another thing...he does not believe in infinite possibilities.....so am preparing myself to not be affected by his lack of belief, and am also paving the way for the next awesome reality to be mine.  Working it.........and I really need as much time as possible for this to me so.............still working out the details.

So, I will be blogging on this regularly....my brilliant thoughts for yesterday was that to live an extraordinary life, I need to do extraordinary things, and for me that includes eating a 100% raw diet....not a reality today....working the Miracle Morning....(I am so not a morning person....I really 'wake up' no earlier than 10 am, preferably closer to noon, beginning my day with a bit of meditation so I go into my day 'conscious'.....with forethought.............with a blue print of how I want my day to go.........and I must work my programs, the Soulful Woman Program is a big big deal, a big big help but I have to participate, do the work, show up for it....and all the rest of the things that I have.....some are good foundations, no longer needed to be worked, but having gotten the gist of them into my programming, they have done their good, but others need further work and exploration.....I have ordered the "Emotion Code" program and am waiting to the cd's and Emotion Chart etc to arrive....and really need to work that program....and or find a practioner to work on my releasing my trapped emotions with me, but I really would love it if I could do it mostly myself.  I had an iridology reading, the main thing I got out of it is that she could see all of the colon cleansing, juice fasting that I had done...that I have actually done my colon alot of good....must keep up the good work.  Other than that she didn't tell me anything I don't know already....she did suggest I cut out overt sugars and wheat from my diet...still working on that.....esp with the wheat.  I like my sprouted grain toast.

So, I am actually quite excited and exhilarated to see what my future brings......in my old life, it was definitely a case of being a square peg in a round hole...not exactly a fit...........and I really don't want to be that again..I am going to find the proper fit for me....and I have a much better idea of what that is....especially as I do need a real job whilst I finally and fully bloom into the real me..........

I have started wearing 'goddess' dress alot more............with my goddess necklaces..my tibetan piece, my amethyst, my turquoise, my beads............being myself more fully in my everyday life....

Tomorrow I hope to attend a full moon drumming ceremony,....hoping it is not outside yet it would be best if it were but it has gotten so very cold here now, at the tail end of December....frosty cold...hopefully there will be a very large bonfire...........and I will dress warmly and bring my new drum which is lovely.....and tomorrow morning (sometime...but not too late....) I am going to the gym, to work out, followed by a lovely session in the steam room, and then hopefully a lunch date with my husband, followed by working on my Soulful Women course...listening to the meditations on the Mystic, etc., participating in the various topics and posts on the forum.....that is my blueprint for tomorrow........and here it ends....bon soir, bon nuit, bon reves.

Ciao bellas!

Being a Vegan Is A Radical Act

It has been 10 days since my last post.  I am still moving forward with my plans, still working on web design, on becoming my witchy goddess wild wise woman self, and my Soulful Women Certificate Course starts next Wednesday.  And I have been dealing with the fear and self-sabotage that has caused.  It has not been too bad, but it is still frustrating.   I was indulging in something that has been detrimental to my overall health and energy levels....I have since stopped.  But I am still dealing with the fear....which I know is just a fear of the unknown, but it paralyzes my mind, makes it harder for me to think clearly, to take action.....but I will push through it....or just use mind aikido on it, which to me means, working with it.  Using it to move forward.  My diet is no longer 100% raw, but it is high raw.  Once you have done this long enough,  it is the new norm, and cooked foods slowly drop away.  There are many foods now that I used to eat that I just can no longer eat.  I eat meat rarely now, and hope to stop completely.  I don't remember what it was that prompted me to get this book from the library, but I checked out and read the book by Howard Lyman, who was on the Oprah Winfrey show back a while ago, "Mad Cowboy, Plain Truth From the Cattle Rancher Who Won't Eat Meat."  From what I can tell he is now not just vegetarian, but vegan.  And after reading his book, and getting info from many other sources, I find myself more and more inclined to be one as well.  Our planet is over populated with humans, but it is more overpopulated with cattle, pigs and even sheep and chickens.  But especially with cattle and pigs.  And the devastation caused by the raising of cattle alone is doing more harm than almost anything else on the planet.  When global warming and carbon dioxide emissions are discussed, you almost never hear that the main contributor of green house gases are cows.  If you read his book you will get a real awakening.....as not only are cattle raised in an extremely unhealthy manner, they are consuming most of the grain grown in the world, most arable land is used to grow food for them, food which isn't even healthy for them.  Cows are fed a "meal" made from dead animals.  It used to be all dead animals including other dead cows, but they took out the cows (supposedly) and now they just eat all other dead animals, cooked down and separated and dried.  They also eat a ton of grain and antibiotics.  Cows are designed to eat grass, not grain.  Grain gives them rectal and vaginal prolapses meaning these body parts fall out of the cow, and have to be pushed back inside and the tear in their flesh that occurs when this happens, needs to be sewn up.  And it happens all of the time.  There is so much information in his book, and none of it is good.  But all of it is true.  If you gave a copy of his book to everyone on the planet, many would read it and be appalled and many would throw it away and not read it because they prefer to live in denial, don't care to know, for some it is how they make their livelihood, and they don't want to think about how they are ruining the planet with their greed. He also addresses water issues, pesticide and herbicides, bovine growth hormone, desertification of the planet...I saw in the news today that Oklahoma had a huge, terrible dust storm, which I can only think is caused by overgrazing of cattle on the land.  I live near open space, land that is left unused, except ranchers can graze cattle on it.  Cattle grazed this land over 2 years ago.  It is now a waste land.  The only thing growing on it is bindweed.  After 2 years, only bindweed.  And they have done nothing to restore it.  From what else I see happening on it, I fear fracking is coming next.  If that happens I don't know what I will do.

So all of that information in his book is more than enough reason to not eat meat, but another reason, is Monsanto and ConAgra etc.  The only way to fight back against these giant corporations that are trying to take over our food supply, is to not eat what they produce.  Being a vegan is a radical act.

And then there is all of the evidence that meat eating contributes majorly to cancers, heart disease, diabetes, and pretty much every disease that ails us.  The cure for all diseases?  Stop eating animals and animal products.  Meat and milk.  Cheese, eggs, butter, etc.  Then you will have the best chance of being healthy and not coming down with these diseases.  You can workout and get as much physical exercise as you like, but if you keep meat and animal products in your diet you will still get heart disease, cancer, etc. 

Love Yourself, Live Life Fully



Love Yourself, Live Life Fully


“Looking fabulous at any age means loving your age,loving who you are, growing into yourself, having a healthy self esteem, looking awesome from the inside out, having a great soul, giving, loving, being selfless. Having a positive attitude, living your best possible life, giving your best to everyone around you. Being present and authentic. Doing what you love. If you have all these, you will look fabulous at any age.”
Nancy Hauschildt, www.yoursouladvice.com



“Being authentic along with with being loyal and honest to yourself imparts grace and contentment to one’s personality .This inner charm never fades away and keeps one always young.” – Vandana Kumar Seth



“Laughter, love, creative expression, and gratitude are my “daily beauty ritual”. Joy Holland, Facets of Joy


“Be happy” – Jana Dawson

What do my choices say about me?



What do my choices say about me?  My choice of a job, my choice of a husband, my choice of books?  The way I choose to spend my time?  My choice of food?  What do my choices say about me?  To be further explored................very soon!

From looking at the wall next to my desk, it is obvious that nature is very important to me, color, design, my boys,......and there is an apple and my red starbucks mug with a dried inner coating of green smoothie......

Untying the Strong Woman 2


okay.  I don't know what you thought, but I thought yesterday's post about untying the strong woman really should have been called  Untying the Crazy Woman, the crazy mad shopper.  I don't go shopping all that often but when I do.........there is something about this time of year that brings out the desire to indulge....in food, in gifts, in soaps and clothes and presents....I bought a new wallet for L....would like to wait until Christmas to give it to him...I think his old one will hold out...he won't buy one before then....and I bought myself lots of new clothes as I need nicer newer clothes to wear to work. 

But enough on that subject as I really would like to address Untying my Strong Woman.  The Strong Woman is a survivor, she is  wild wise natural and free...which means I need to spend more time out in nature...at the very least I need to take a walk along the creek path if not ride my bike during this most lovely fall weather....my skirt is a long one today, not so sure it'd be good to ride a bike in.  Fall is such a heady time of year.  October is my favorite month. 

And I need to spend more time thinking about my life, envisioning it, planning it, doing it being it creating it.  So far, I have signed up for a web design class, the Soulful Women Certificate Program, the Keys to the Feminine Power webinar series, I have an altar/table space in my bedroom, my husband moved out his bureau so I could have that there, since having it in the room that is his office wasn't going to work (so very nice of him to do this) so now the bedroom is mostly mine....I mean we do still sleep in the same bed and he still has clothes in the closet but it just feels more like my room.  I am putting up more pictures and burning incense daily and keep the window open even if it's only a little bit, must have some fresh air in the room...and I need to sit with this, but first I must go out.  Right now.  Take a break. 
I have signed up for a free webinar first one is this Saturday Oct. 13th.  The title is "The Keys to Feminine Power: Awakening the Three Power Bases of the New, Co-Creative Feminine".
 I am now registered with the Feminine Power Global Community.  Whoever that is.....I never remember who I get these kind of things from...however I am looking forward to it.

But back to the here and now.  I am not doing the Miracle Morning.....I am trying to spend more time outside...think I will go take a break right now, and another one this afternoon.....

And I need to exercise more, eat 100% raw or at least 100% vegan nonprocessed foods, so I have to plan my big extravaganza meal for this week....and whats up with buying all of these avocados and then not eating them?  Letting them sit and get too ripe.  A waste of money is what it is....money right down the drain.

I was going to work on my website today but dangit I left the password in a little black book in a different bag which I left at home....not sure I can get in it.

so....then what do I do?  I have been working on Devaa & Elaine's questionnaire.......dang really don't like trying to answer these things.....but will have to put in the effort....get this brain to actually do some work.
Focus.

This morning has been good food wise......have a yummy quart of green smoothie and some plums and 2 bananas.  Did eat too many chocolates....5 of them...really need to get some of the regular dark chocolate....it doesn't seem to be as sweet or something.

Something has changed here....I am not so carefree.....I am not embracing my future with abandon, but with an element of fear............but at least I am not letting the fear win....but I want to go back to enjoying my life and planning my life with joyful abandon!

Here is to living a full life!

Untying the Strong Woman My Declaration of Commitment to All Women, My Declaration of Commitment to Myself!"

The Presentation of the  Declaration of Commitment to Indigenous Peoples  A great thing indeed but I am here to make a presentation of "My Declaration of Commitment to All Women, My Declaration of Commitment to Myself!"  .

Oh my, so what does that mean?  To me it means actively learning to love myself, actively working outside my comfort zone in my quest to become...to be.....a witch, a wild wise woman a priestess a goddess my authentic self.  Discovering who that is and going forward and just dissolving the fear that always comes.  I will not let fear deter me...especially since it is just fear of nothing.

 I was out and about today, this beautiful fall day, I picked all of the ripe and anywhere near ripe and even quite green tomatoes (everything except the squishy ones....) and I brought them in, it was nice spending some time out of doors.....and then I went shopping, I only meant to be gone 2 hours but it was closer to 3 or 4 even...a long long time....because, I went to the Sports Authority and got Naiche's Sports Wash deodorizing liquid and then I looked at clothes and brought some home..spent a bit of money on that....then I went to Marshall's and spent quite alot of money on clothes, soaps, sauces, vanilla extract, a cool cube to sit on in front of my table.......and I was at Target and King Soopers, Alfalfa's, WF and Vit Cot...and so all in all today I spent a shitload of money....sorry for that word but that pretty much describes it.....I have to see if I can't return some of it...quite a bit of it actually or....just fudge it?  Ooooh I hate to fudge it esp as the cat needs to go to the vet I think....sigh........what to do...wish Dr. Schulze was here but he'd still make me do it........but at least he'd be here to tell me what to do....and I have to work....could I actually heal my cat???? ooooh

Not sure I should have indulged with Mark & Ray, especially since I indulged earlier today....but oh well, what's done is done....I am watching what I eat, not eating honey and sweets, though I want some....I am hoping that will help me to look better....not tired...I may have to give it up for a bit now.. I really should anyways.....

So, I bought lots of groceries too.......and came home and made hamburgers and chili, the burger is grassfed beef and I got the 85%lean mixed with at least half if not a bit more of the 95%lean, all for the 85% price...again.....thank you goddess.....universe...........shopping angels.................but on another subject, I've got to say, I won't name any names but I was at the house of a famous in certain circles person, whose house was filled with like dollhouse stuff, fairy doll house stuff and she herself was dressed in fairy clothes, but it just didn't feel real to me, it felt like pretending or something, not real.....and her new roommate....aiya! that woman was just icky....I did not care for her in the least little bit....and I didn't really think much of the food that was brought.....flavor was lacking, so they were a bit bland and boring......but there was a  yummy desert of which I had my share and I liked what I brought, it was yummy and was fairly well eaten......this one woman was touting herself as a raw chef but I found her creation lacking and the accompanying sauce....was greenish but if you hadn't said it was a wasabi sauce I never would have guessed....as no flavor of wasabi was detectable....anyhoo...a little lemon juice or something on the nori roll thingys, something....would have helped.....enough of this though.....got a great hug from someone I honestly don't know all that well but I know I like her after receiving such an awesome hug from her.............I need more of those in my life....don't know enough awesome huggers.

Can't wait for tomorrow night...hopefully the hubby will go out and play his music and come home late and I will have lots of time home alone (sort of , of course there will be 2 boys at home and the cat)....to look at my loot and decide what I really must keep and what I really must return......and how the hell this is all going to work.....all of this spending of money.....it can only lead to good...it feels good to indulge myself...I am going to keep on indulging myself and watch the love come pouring in...............

So....off to other adventures such as reading my Clarissa Pinkola Estes book and day dreaming of the 'morrow..

Tomb of Ancient Mayan Warrior Queen Discovered



All hail Lady Snake Lord -- at least what's left of her. Archeologists believe they have discovered the tomb of the great Mayan warrior queen in Guatemala, according to National Geographic. Her Snake-ness ruled the Wak kingdom for her family, the Kan or "Snake" dynasty, between A.D. 672 and 692, National Geographic wrote. She reigned as one of the most powerful rulers of the Classic Maya civilization. Her formal name was "Lady Ka'bel" but her serpentine moniker was far more colorful, Newser points out. The dig at El Peru-Waka's main pyramid temple produced a critical clue to the decayed bones' identity: a stone alabaster jar in the tomb that has the carved head of an old woman poking out of it. The lined, stern face matches historical accounts of the queen, and the carved hieroglyphics on the other side of the jar list her known nicknames, including Lady Snake Lord, NBC News reported. "It's as close as to a smoking gun as we can get in archeology," said expedition co-director David Freidel, an archeologist from Washington University in St. Louis. Other ceramic vessels discovered in the tomb and stone carvings on the outside also suggest the skeletal remains belong to Lady Snake Lord. However, there is the possibility that she handed down the jar as an heirloom to another royal who was ascending to the great beyond, Freidel told the university's website. David Stuart, a professor of Mesoamerican art and writing at the University of Texas at Austin, told National Geographic there was a "fair chance" it was Lady Snake Lord. In any case, Lady Snake Lord was one commanding potentate -- even at home, Freidel added. Her husband was king, but she alone carried the title of "Supreme Warrior," meaning she ruled over him, too.
By Mike McDonald


GUATEMALA CITY
Thu Oct 4, 2012 5:28am EDT

(Reuters) - Archaeologists in Guatemala have discovered the tomb of an ancient Mayan warrior queen packed with jade jewels and other artefacts that shed light on the long-vanished civilization, experts said on Wednesday.

Researchers from Guatemala and the United States uncovered the remains of Queen Kalomt'e K'abel, who reigned in the seventh century, at the Peru-Waka dig site in the sweltering Peten jungle region in northern Guatemala.

Inside the tomb, the team found a hoard of glistening jade jewels and a small alabaster vase decorated with the image of an older woman's face and inscribed with the queen's name, providing identification of the long-dead ruler.

"To discover something of this importance is very unusual," lead archaeologist David Freidel told Reuters. "She was the supreme warlord of her kingdom."

The remains were discovered in June but it has taken until now for experts to verify the identity of the queen.

The Central American nation is studded with pyramids and ruins from the ancient Mayan civilization, which thrived between AD 250 and 900 and extended from modern day Honduras to central Mexico.

Queen K'abel's portrait has appeared on Mayan plaques that associate her with the year 692 during the Mayan classic period, when her husband, king Wak K'inich Bahlam II, ruled.

Historians believe that K'abel reigned over Calakmul, a Mayan community which often battled the powerful king 'El Zotz' and his kingdom Tikal - just south of the border with present-day Mexico - where well-preserved ruins are a popular draw for tourists.

Deciphering the identities of ancient Mayan leaders from dig sites often proves a challenge. While rulers' tombs are often covered with ancient hieroglyphics and pictures, determining precise names is difficult, researchers said.

"We had made a lot of discoveries of objects making reference to this queen and now to complete it with her remains is very important," said Guatemalan archaeologist Griselda Perez. (Editing Tim Gaynor and Mohammad Zargham)



A team of US and Guatemalan experts led by anthropologist David Freidel found a stone jar at a burial chamber in the royal Maya city of El Peru-Waka that led them to believe it is the burial site of Lady K'abel, considered to be the military governor of an ancient Maya city during the 7th century.

Hieroglyphs on the back of the alabaster jar denote the names Lady Snake Lord and Lady Water Lily.

As well as the jar, which was carved in the shape of a conch shell with the shape of an old woman protruding from the front, the team found other evidence, such as ceramic vessels, jade jewellery, thousands of obsidian blades and a large stone with carvings referring to Lady K'abel. The items were buried with the body – presumably as offerings.

"Lady K'abel was buried 11 meters down from the surface in a temple near a stairway," Mr Freidel said. "K'abel was not a regular person. To put her in that location means that it was important; it means that people continued to worship her after the fall of the dynasty."

"The royal tomb shows that women have been leaders in the past and we must now assume and exercise political participation to strengthen the role of women in the new era," Rosa Maria Chan, deputy minister for cultural and natural heritage, said in the statement.



K'abel, considered the greatest ruler of the Late Classic period, ruled with her husband, K'inich Bahlam, for at least 20 years in the 7th century, Mr Freidel said. She was the military governor of the Waka kingdom for her family, the imperial house of the Snake King, and she carried the title "Kaloomte" – translated as "Supreme Warrior," higher in authority than her husband, the king.

Mr Freidel, who is from Washington University in St Louis, said the findings at the ruins of El Peru-Waka were "serendipitous."

"In retrospect, it makes a lot of sense that the people of Waka buried her in this particularly prominent place in their city," Mr Freidel said.

For Marcello A. Canuto, director of the Research Center of Central Tulane University in Louisiana, the alabaster identifies the tomb as that of the "Lady of Kaan" and noted there is a stela erected in her honour at the archaeological site.

"She has been given all the honours a male king would have been given," Canuto said. "It's not the first such tomb discovered, but it gives an idea of the important role women played in forging dynastic alliances, and the status they enjoyed."

Traci Ardren, associate professor of anthropology at the University of Miami and a Mayan archaeologist specialising in gender relations, said the traditional belief that Maya men occupied a more important place than women has to do with the amount of images in Mayan art that show men in positions of authority.

"People like Lady K'abel show there were examples of extraordinary women that were able to position themselves in powerful roles, were incredibly successful and were accepted by society," Ardren said

Clarissa Pinkola Estes

What an awesome name, what an awesome woman, writer, creature...........here are a few video tributes (oh and she has a new book out....."Blessed Mother's Immaculate Love for the Wild Soul  UNTIE the STRONG WOMAN".......I put it on hold at the library and started reading it today....) double click on videos and they will go to full screen

du Chat Noir

As a Tigress, I have a dark side that I affectionately refer to as le Chat Noir.  And yesterday, le Chat Noir came to visit.  I like le Chat Noir sometimes, but yesterday, le Chat was a real brat.  Went into a panic because things are changing.............and just ate and ate all day............sweets and dark chocolate and fruit and corn pudding and guacamole and carrot cake.....lots of it........and the belly grew  but there is hope as the scale only showed a half pound gain.  Today, even though I went into the fog again (even as I'd just said I wasn't going to) today is very different.  I recognized that yesterday I was all emotionally discombobulated, panicking, and I knew why, and I just let it be.  And when I woke up again I was fine....more than fine......oh.  There was a large sky of blue outside my windows but now, its a blanket of soft fuzzy gray with snow on the trees green and golden leaves.....it's a gorgeous scene.  I have to go and take a look at the mountains....see what's happening over there......I love it that we have such awesome views from our windows...........ah, just a thick low hanging blanket of clouds.....and I just realized that now that the wall between the two offices across the way,  has been taken down, with the door open and the shades up, (ie whenever the room is not in use) I have a marvelous view of the foothills and flatirons.  Yippee!

And yippee, the kitchen in our office is going to be painted a lovely shade of lavender, lilac, light purple with a hint of blue....it is going to be very pretty.  I wanted the wall by my desk to be painted that same color, but it just wouldn't look right....unless they painted all the walls up front that color which I know they wouldn't want to do......I would though.....

Okay, so we have a real autumn day here, we got about a half inch of snow maybe an inch, overnight, but since everything was warm, very little of it stuck to the ground, and now I think it's all melted....but the sky is overcast, and it's chilly and damp out, we turned our furnace on....a good day to have a hot cup of tea, bowl of soup, sit and read or write.....just a nice day.

So........what is on my action list....what do I need to work on my rawtigress website some more...no pressure there kid....as the rmpjc website is being moved....nothing you can do there right now anyways....once it's moved I can change the theme.............but for now, I just need to become familiar with website design.  So that's the next step, plus I need to get Dakota to help me download/copy the Spanish cd/dvd's........this weekend....and take a nice long walk outside, and stretch and do yoga, and make lentil vegetable soup....and we have to go to the Farmer's Market and pick up our newly sharpened chef's knife
and I need to send a list of my favorite raw websites, stories, films etc. to Nick.

So au revoir, Chat Noir....I leave you for now.

Becoming My Greater Than Imagined Self

All ready I am feeling differently in my skin....as I prepare to embark on this soulful journey with Devaa & Elayne.  I have had awesome moments of feeling overwhelming love, from within and without, and today after visioning myself as an earth witch, a hedge witch, I feel so much more in my own skin.  I am a witch. Hedge witch is a term that I have encountered and that works for me....I am so excited about my life now....such a wonderful change.....but I really want to throw my husband out of his study...I want to space all for myself...I need my own space.

hmmm maybe I can rent a small studio space???

A real witch.....

I just realized that it is possible I know the ancient ways through a priestesshood, as that feels right, but what also feels right and what I am most strongly drawn to though it's rather a tie between do I want to see myself as a priestess....all lightness love and compassion or do I want to be a wild wise woman witch?  I think I opt for the latter and I do it joyfully, gleefully....and I am my own sort of witch, not bound by any traditions that don't feel right to me......and I aspire to be these things (for starters........I have much to dis-cover....: ) 

A real witch eats raw garlic every day
A real witch uses sacred and healing oils daily as offerings in rituals, as aromatherapy, as medicine, as food
A real witch is knowledgeable about the properties and uses of medicinal healing herbs, and goes out and gathers them and uses them daily, in teas and tonics and for all sorts of things
A real witch loves a rainy day.............especially the misty cloudy days one can walk out and about in.............
A real witch craves a wild open meadow full of wild flowers and plants, and all sorts of creatures from large to small
A real witch lives wild and free
A real witch howls at the moon and lives where she can see the Milky Way.
A real witch is aware of the phases of the moon, knows where it is, if it's waxing or waning....
A real witch loves to go out and about in the dark of night, full moons favored.....dark moons are used for dark purposes of which a good witch is knowledgeable but not practiced in.
A real witch does not have a television or a microwave,  but she sometimes has a computer and a cellphone.
A real witch cooks with fire.
A real witch wears real clothing made from organic cotton, flax, wool and fibers such as silk and rayon.  Most of which are hand-made, always interesting and practical. (Except for the wild fun fancy clothes for the many moods and celebrations)
A real witch eats fruits and vegetables that are organic and local, cultivated and wild, in season....eats meat and sweets in moderation.
A real witch celebrates full moons, eclipses, changing of the seasons, bounty of the earth, equinoxes, and all natural events of note.
A real witch smells of woodsmoke, garlic, earth, sweat, jasmine and sandalwood, sage and rosemary, mugwort and raspberry.....
A real witch has a garden, wild and wooly and full of surprises
A real witch knows how to birth a baby
A real witch loves candles, and pens and ink and paper, loves being creative in many ways
A real witch fully inhabits her sexuality
A real witch is highly in tune with her surroundings, the universe, inner and outer, is keenly perceptive to the point of clairvoyance
A real witch is definitely out of the norm

A real witch is me.

Alessandra


 

Integrating Change

So now that I have added all of these things to my life, (I signed up for the Soulful Women Certificate Program last night), I need to integrate them all.  I do find it a bit overwhelming, my brain is going in to freeze mode a bit, but that is exactly what I have to overcome.  Letting things that are unknown, outside of my comfort zone, overwhelm me and throw me off track.

I am a bit off track with being 100% raw, in that I haven't been for a couple of days now.  I have been eating decently, but some cooked foods.  It doesn't help that yesterday morning I drank a bit of juice I'd had in the fridge (and out) for a few days and made myself feel awful.  No upset stomach or bowels...just felt really bad.  It got better once I'd eaten some other foods...which were cooked, not raw.  Today I had some whole wheat saltine crackers, and a few Back to Nature wheat thin type crackers...and some dark chocolate nuggets and a banana, and apple, some raw almonds, a great salad with mixed greens, red bell pepper and grape tomatoes (my usual)...and a greens plus chia bar.  I need to drink up the green smoothie I brought...it's not even a full quart...just half...that my loving hubby shared with me as I was still feeling very tired this morning and overslept a bit.

Tomorrow is going to be 100% raw and so on moving forward.  Tomorrow I also go to a RawLuck...a raw potluck and it is at the house of Brigitte Mars.  How wonderful!  I got some of the last sweetcorn of the season (even picked it myself!!!) and made these yummy raw corn tamales which I am bringing.( tamales have become "corn pudding" as the corn husks were most inflexible and the mixture too moist..but it is so very yummy. ..and I went out in the dark last night with my cell phone for a flashlight and picked the oh so few tomatillos that grew (bushes are huge, fruit is few and far between) and some green tomatoes to make a raw salsa verde.  If I am feeling extrememly ambitious I will also make a raw sour cream with young coconut and lemons/limes.  No raw sour cream but the salsa verde turned out very well, if I do say so myself!

And....I have to start listening to my spanish cd's, schedule a colonic, do some yoga, and take another look at my action plan...oh, and take advantage of my website course, and of course Aine Beltons Intuition Zone course, and work full time, fix dinner, run kids around, spend quality time with my husband and yes....need to figure out the first order of business....and attend to it.  At least I have the RMPJC website on track for being transferred over to a new webhost.....now I don't need to feel so guilty about that and can update the theme and content once that's been settled.

So phew!  Lots to do!

Conscious Evolution Proceeding at the Speed of Light

Just imagine a floodgate in your mind , with many things washed up against it, ideas, events, situations, creations, everything that you have been wanting, have been waiting for, have been looking for, and then imagine that floodgate opening and everything rushing out all at once.  That is what it feels like is happening now that I have put events into motion, the bits and pieces are all coming at once, the connections, the information, the people, the events, and it is awesome and amazing.  Little bits big bits all of the bits and pieces I have been seeking, and they have been there all along, I just didn't let them come in.  And now that I am inviting them in, they are all just flooding into my life and it's like Christmas every single day!  It is amazing.

I am going to participate in the Soulful Women Certificate Program, I am taking a web design course so I can properly rework the RMPJC website, I have found a possible new picture for it, but they might find it a bit too new age...but I find it awesome and visionary.  I met a real life young beautiful amazing goddess today, she is a visionary artist and creates beautiful art, and from looking at the work on her website I can see she has grown to be a most amazing artist...her work is so deep so awesome so beautiful full of archtypes and symbols and meanings.....and through her website I became aware of The Conscious Alliance who does work with the Pine Ridge Reservation, and I also have another Inuition Zone course from Aine Belton for the can't pass it up price of $77, which I am going to do, and then 3 colonics for only $99 which I am also going to do, I was going to pass that one up until I remembered I;d googled the place and the woman who owns/runs this place is amazingly awesome I just have to meet her, visit her, partake of her services so I am going to do that also, and then I signed up for a domain name, website with Bluehost as a part of the web design course that I signed up for, and I started one website and downloaded WordPress to it, but then got stuck, hopefully tomorrow I will figure out how to proceed further but if I don't the web course will get me on track.

So.....a wonderful fall weekend.....couldn't ask for better weather...and I truly, could not ask for a better husband, he is so wonderfully supportive....so loving.  And he and the guys got together last night to play music at our house and it was good........I love it that my husband is a musician and that I really like his music and his friends.....  so....I have been very high raw...I created this awesome dish based on a recipe for an autumn squash soup with pear and vanilla...mine had apples and nutmeg and vindaloo curry spice and since the recipe called for a bit of cream, I just added some coconut butter and oh my my....it is soooo good....the taste to me is like fettucine alfredo only better....and the very thinly sliced rings of onion are like the noodles....a yummy pasta free vegan dish.  I am making another variation of it tonight....probably need to add some onion in for flavor but I also have a small spagetti squash that I cut in lengthwise quarters and have sitting on top of the butternut squash cubes cooking in the water and apple cider....fresh raw unpasteurized organic apple cider....yum.   And then of course there is chicken in the oven......but I am going to start cooking more yummy vegan meals.

I had Chipotle for lunch...just the fajita veggies in a bowl, no meat, beans or dairy but I had some fresh salsa, some corn salsa, some of the hot salsa, some guacamole and some lettuce.  Mixed that all up it;'s like a salad and so yum and I ate that with some white corn chips they have.  Very good food.  I don't feel like I have to be 100% raw when I am eating such healthy foods.  And I made over a quart of green juice today, drank most of it and will have the rest tomorrow.

That's all for now, I hope it's not too disjointed

ciao bellas~!
Alessandra

Moving Right Along

Okay, so still 100% raw.  But more importantly, I had the talk with my husband Wed evening, and it went well.  I had him read this blog starting with  9/23 Being A Raw Tigress...up through the Wed blog post...and he is totally in support of me doing this!  (Which I knew he would be...he has always wanted more for me).  He is concerned that the program might not do all that I want/need/believe it will do....so we still need to have some more discussion about it before he's completely onboard.  We have agreed to do this on Sunday instead of our usual hike, so we might go out and take a walk, but it will be a walk with a specific purpose.   I have to get my thoughts and facts together before then....mmmmm

But I have gotten the withdrawal from my 401k put into motion, I have gotten some spanish dvd's a Pimsleur program, need to start listening to them...maybe copy them onto my computer and then upload them to my phone....and I have signed up for a webdesign class.  All things on my action list.

Must say, that I am a bit scared, and starting to feel the usual resistance, fear, etc....but I am not letting it rule the day, I am looking at it, seeing it for what it is and seeing if there is anything behind it that needs addressing, and then moving on.  I will have to keep doing this for a while, as I know I have alot of fear to move through....but I am doing it!  Putting things into motion so that I have to take the next step....and it's good.  I know I can do it!

My raw diet has been pretty boring and unchanging, not that I dont like it but I have no yummy food creations to tell you about.  I have been having green smoothies, bananas, apples, almonds, mixed greens salads with grape tomatoes, red bell pepper and shredded carrots on them, sometimes with avocado, and last night I also had more pesto with loads of garlic... I love it and just eat it with a spoon.  I am sick and it is helping.  Also just really like it.  And had a few extra pine nuts as well.  I love pine nuts they are so yummy.

So today so far it has been green smoothie really loaded up on the mixed greens, a banana, some almonds...I may go out and get another salad....we shall see...with this cold whatever my appetite is somewhat reduced.

So...what am I doing...what do I need to do?  I need to get online and do the web designing course, but my password isn't working for some reason...so I am waiting to hear back from them....I was able to get into it yesterday...and I have all of this free time today...I really want to get working on something.  I am going to setup a website for RawTigress as my sample site to play around with.  Should be lots of fun.  And then I really have to get to work on the RMPJC website..actually I need to get that into motion now.

So I've got work to do!

Right now!

ciao bellas!

Re-creating My Life!

I am still 100% raw, still have not had a miracle morning (last night I seriously was awake all night long...) I had the Ginseng tea.yesterday...and it kept me from sleeping.  It also made me hyper and irritable today, much like having a decongestant and eating dark chocolate does, luckily not too much so....

As I sit here at my desk in my office I am not looking forward to the talk I need to have with my husband tonight about committing to spending $2000 on the Soulful Women Certificate Program, money which I am going to withdraw from my 401k, yet knowing that I must.  I must talk to him about it and I must do it.

I feel like a tiger in a cage.  I do not belong here.......my spirit has been so wounded by this lack of action on my part...of taking charge of my life....but I have been preparing for this moment all of my life, and feel that now, the motivation, the pain is strong enough, the understanding of what it will take and the knowledge that I can do it....I know I can.....even if I have never done it before, I can because I must because I know that if I don't, I will become a sad, bitter, dry, husk of an old woman, and it would be such a waste.  It already has been.  The waiting has made me all that much more powerful....like a coal that has turned into a diamond that is me.......I am a diamond in the rough...and now for some polishing so I can sparkle and shine!

So...feeling fearful and excited and oh so hopeful, my spirit is actually paying attention now....daring to hope, so much wanting to be all that I truly am.  I have denied myself for so long...........cannot deny myself anymore.  I feel this on such a deep level.....it brings me to tears if I let myself really feel it.  I can see there will be many tears up ahead, but they will be tears of joy, of healing, of happiness.

so that's all for today.....not eating a whole lot...have a bit of a cold....which being 100% raw really helps with, it doesn't really manifest many symptoms, just feel tired....but it's also irritated sinuses caused by a certain indulgence........which I won't give up.  But I do limit it so that it is an optimal experience and not just a habit. 

Being A Soulful Raw Tigress!

I am quite excited, yet a bit scared at the same time...but then isn't that what you are supposed to do?  Do something that makes you a bit scared....push yourself a bit?  I applied to participate in the Soulful Women Certificate Program.....actually I don't know if they are offering the whole program, or just a taste, and I imagine at some point they are going to say, we accept you into the program, it costs X dollars....and at that point I will really be in a tough spot.  I don't see my husband agreeing to spend X dollars, for understandable reasons, and while I could put it on a credit card....I really don't want to do that either.  I will cross that bridge when I come to it.

The application was really quite detailed, they asked alot of questions, for which my blog post of my new vision/path was most helpful......and it is just such synchronicity for it all to happen now.....the river was flowing, the pendulum was swinging and I just jumped on board........

I have yet to do my miracle morning...afraid I still have some excuses.....I was too tired (I was....) it was too cold in the house,  I will do it while I lie here in bed.  lol.  okay!

But I worked a long time last night filling out this application and that has done plenty to get me thinking and rev me up....and Ryan Eliason's Social Entrepreneur webcast yesterday about doubling  your time and income was very inspiring...challenging and I have created a 12 month timeline for......leaving my job!

This definitely entails participating in the Soulful Women Certificate Program. 

OCT NOV DEC - Be Do Grow Believe Dream Create ie keep on doing more of what I am doing

JAN FEB ~ Be Do Grow Believe Celebrate Dream Create some more!

MAR APR ~ WORK WILL PREDOMINATE ( I work for Tax Accountants)

MAY ~ VACATION Going camping in Utah

JUNE JULY ~ Work half time......

AUG ~ Give notice

SEPT 1st ~ BE GONE!!!

The very idea of this excites me so much!!!  I am going to get a calendar much like the one Ryan uses and mark out my days......out line my plans.......

This is all so wild and exhilarating..............and today is day 4? of being 100% raw....yesterday I ate 2 bananas, some almonds, 2 apples, nearly a quart of green smoothie, a salad with romaine and mixed greens, red bell pepper, carrots and some grape tomatoes....at home after work I had another banana I think and then made some pesto with lots of garlic and ate that.  I only had about 1/3 the basil I normally use, so it wasn't that large of an amount...and I also ate a 3-4 tablespoons of pine nuts.  I love pine nuts they are so good!  And that was it....after 4 days of doing this I have lost 5 pounds!  Yee ha!

And my mood is oh so good and happy.... I am also taking Chanca Piedra to keep my kidneys stone free (as I did eat chocolate yesterday, forgot to mention that bit....I really should not have, but I wanted more energy so I had 4 dark chocolate nuggets with almond bits in them.....a good kick!)  Today for more energy I am having some Ginseng Royal Vitality tea from Yogi teas....it gives good energy.  I want to get some Maca Force from Heath Naturals....or whoever that is...I really like maca.  When I first tried it I didn't as my body needed to go through some adjustments with it and it didn't feel great at first...a bit too much, but after my body adjusted (I think some imbalances got corrected) it just makes me feel really good!

And I took 2 B-100 capsules and 5 little yummy chewable B-12 tablets from Source Naturals.....figured some extra B-12 couldn't hurt.

So....I tend to eat pretty much the same thing from day to day...I plan on having another salad for lunch, with avocado this time...today I brought an avocado to add to the salad I get at Alfalfa's salad bar, I love it that you don't have to wonder if any of their stuff is organic....it all is!  And I brought my own salad dressing that I love ..Lucini's Delicate Cucumber and Shallot dressing...I love it because it is about the only salad dressing that is not made with soy or canola oil.  I do not ingest soy or canola if I can help it.

So....at work...nothing going on.....watching tutorials on building WP websites so I can do this one for the RMPJC that I need to do......with a little help from a real web designer....

Yes!

ciao bellas!

ps  Found out what the X is....have decided how to get the money and put that into motion.  Doing this feels scary but not doing it feels depressing.  Leap of Faith!!!

Being a Raw Tigress- Day 2

I am reading a new book "Wheat Belly" about the effects of modern day wheat on people's health and waistlines, apparently wheat has been modified so much it has this substance in it (don't remember if it's a protein or what) but apparently it causes blood sugars to rise even more than sugar, a candy bar, etc. and causes a whole host of other issues.  The author is a doctor and has done his research as well as has improved the lives of hundreds of people by having them remove wheat from their diet.  They lose weight, their irritable bowel, migraines, heart conditions, you name it, they all improve dramatically.

When you eat wheat, it breaks down into polypetides that cross the blood-brain barrier...which is not something that most things can do....and it creates endorphins that hit the same spot in the brain as heroin, and for some, can be a serious addiction.  The same drug that is used to block heroin (naxalone) blocks the effect of wheat in the brain.  Studies have shown that schizophrenic patients do much better when wheat is removed from their diets.  They have fewer hallucinations, hear fewer voices, generally are greatly improved.

So....no more wheat for me, and I am planning a wheat free week for my family.  Maybe that will help my son lose those last 10-20 pounds he needs to lose.  He has lost 10, he needs to lose a few more.

I am doing well and feeling well eat 100% raw and my weight is going down daily, I am down 1.5 pounds from just yesterday, which is a new recent low...and hopefully it will go lower.  I would love to lose my "wheat baby", ie pregnant look, which is where all my extra weight goes.  Just the other day, I gave this homeless man some food I had on me (a bag of these cool new natural chips and a container of organic raspberries...)  I was feeling all good about myself, and then he asks me about my baby..when it's due..
I am 57 years old people!  I am not having any more babies!!  I know he didn't mean anything by it but it rather soured the experience for me...however I do hope he enjoyed the food I gave him.

So, yesterday we took a great hike, not quite as strenuous as the last one, but still a good hike, but I was having issues with breathing...I really need to try using an inhaler before I go out, but I am hoping with being 100% raw I don't need one...but my lungs have candida in them and I react strongly to molds, and I think with all the fall decay, there must be more mold in the air...so I had to stop and catch my breath a fair bit...but it felt good to my legs....they need the workout.  I don't usually use an inhaler, haven't been diagnosed with asthma, but I do have it...my dad had it, my sister has it, my son has it.....but mostly mine does not bother me.  That is another thing wheat can cause, exercise induced asthma.  I would like to get my son off of wheat and see if he notices a difference as it really interferes with his kickboxing which he loves, and also makes it difficult for him to run, esp outside.

I did not get any stretching in before bed, and I did not do my miracle morning this morning, I was up too late, and also with yesterday's hike, just really needed that extra hour of sleep...but tomorrow....no excuses.  I brought a quart of green smoothie to work, 2 bananas, 2 local org. apples and I have org non-pasteurized almonds in my drawer.  If  I need to I will go out and get a salad.  And tonight I will make my green juice.  Some for tonight and also some for tomorrow.  It's best for me to make it the night before as it takes a bit of time and space that I do not have in the mornings.

I reread yesterday's post...my vision....and am working on the action aspects as well as fleshing it out a bit more.  I see I wrote that  I am a high priestess who honors all goddess/women oriented traditions....Social Empowerment for Women,  I have started a Center for Becoming,  but I don't have any action plans for that....will definitely start working on that...maybe by re-reading the story of Iananna...I love that story.  Will also have to figure out what a Center for Becoming is all about.  Such fun adventures ahead!!

Ciao bellas for now!
Alessandra

Being a Raw Tigress

At the risk of living largely, I am most excited about my life right now.....I am envisioneering my future, miracling my mornings, have green juice and green smoothies daily, have a morning plan and an evening plan and will envision everything in between...
I realized whilst I was musing on this that I had a solid 2 year plan....it may take me 5 years to do it but I am envisioning it as a 2 yr plan and have written it out.  This is it:

We (Liam & I & Desert Sky) will be living in a gorgeous adobe house with 20 acres of land, in or around Sedona or Santa Fe.  Liam will no longer be a professor he will be pursuing his music, enjoying his music and I will be bringing in the big bucks...because I have become my highest self, a raw wheatfree vegan, artiste with a website, who teaches classes, writes books, knows enough about web design to get around, who gives workshops and seminars and hosts a women's circle.....I am a high priestess who honors all goddess/women oriented traditions....Social Empowerment for Women,  I have started a Center for Becoming, ...we always sponsor women who are working towards empowerment, who choose empowerment but could use a little help.

Naiche is in school in Ft. Lewis or wherever is best for him to be...

Dakota is still in school, now living on his own...doing very well

Maja is doing very well, he has finished his game and is finally making money with it...he is neither rich nor poor but very happy   he has his cafe....and has alot of friends and support as he is being his highest self.

I am 100% raw wheatfree vegan....I am slim, trim, energetic and look 40 not 60....I am fully manifesting my being through creativity, community, humor, writing, speaking, teaching, relaxing, traveling, combining all of the above....

I stretch/do yoga twice daily
I hike at least once a week and take daily walks in nature
I am an artist, a catalyst, a designer/creator of my life....outrageously wonderful in my awesome wisdom and compassion.....I am a Social Entrepreneur of the highest order...I have a strong vision that I nurture daily, it is a living vision continually changing and becoming ever more beautiful and powerful....I am having fun every day, I love my life and my warm circle of friends

I am an exquisite raw chef, I make one most excellent all out raw meal per week, I keep myself well supplied with the universe's best flax crackers.  I do a vision quest every equinox, my life is full of spirituality, I attend sweatlodges regularly, I have the freedom to daydream and create....I am an artiste

My body is vibrant, healthy, muscular and strong....I do regular colon, liver, kidney cleanses....not sure about engimas or cohydro but we shall see where I go...

So what is needed to bring all of this into being is I take a weekend to do a vision quest asap,
I take classes/learn about web design so I am proficient enough for my needs, I live a raw, wheat-free vegan
lifestyle, I practice envisioneering every day as part of my miracle morning, my miracle life,. I stretch/do yoga 10 minutes every am & pm, with Liam, I have green juice & green smoothies practically every day, I take classes/ practice conversation & become fluent in Spanish.  I practice creating/making exquisite raw recipes, preparing one elaborate raw meal per week, I take weekly hikes and daily walks in nature, do daily stretching or yoga,  am taking Spanish classes and web design classes....have a bi-weekly women's circle, 

I have a space of my own, even if it's a moving space for now,

I allow my spiritual self to awaken, I nourish and feed it, I participate in sweatlodges and other spiritual events of all persuasions that I am drawn to, Goddess, Buddhist, Native, Pantheistic, I work on my chakras and responding to all beings and situations with loving compassion, utmost kindness.

I have crystals, incense, music, musical instruments, a warm circle of friends,  I am in tune with the Universe.

So to become all of that I have to follow certain disciplines, such as eating 100% raw vegan, which I am doing, took a great hike today, wrote out my Biggest Dream, planned out what I need to make it all happen, and then mapped out the start.......tonight I was going to do 10 minutes of cleaning and 10 minutes of yoga and go to bed, (it's 10:47 pm) but I set the timer for 10 min, started cleaning, and kept resetting the timer until I had cleaned for over an hour.  Then I stopped, and the kitchen and surrounding area look good....the recycling and newspapers are out, the dishes are done and put away, dinner is put away, counters are clean, clutter is gone, the room is looking good.  I plan on cleaning at least 10 minutes every evening.  Then I did this...wrote out my dream....and rewrote it here....now for a bit of stretching and it's off to bed!

I already have my morning planned out.....I am getting up at 5 am and doing yoga/stretching for 10 min, envisioneering my life for 10 min, doing affirmations for 10 min, envisioneer the rest of my day for 10 min and pick up/clean the house for 10 min.

At 6am-6:15 I will make my green smoothie, water the plants, get dressed, get my lunch together,  do a bit of misc and leave for work at 7:17am.

This is my vision statement and I will read it/revisit it/ live it daily.

Being A Goddess

I bought myself a present for my 57th birthday, a nice little keychain tag that has the word "Goddess" on it...which is me.....and I have been seeking out pleasurable moments throughout my day, enjoying walking around, inside and outside the office.....feeling good when I do the stairs and especially good when I do the stairs AND get in a bike ride, as I did yesterday, and the day before!  I am even going to ride again today and I am looking forward to my next set of stairs and little walk.  I am also looking forward to going up the new path to see where it goes, and stopping in that little alcove and cutting a bunch of catnip spires, and it will be easy because I am continually thinking to myself, yes, today I am bringing the scissors!!!  And then this evening, L & I are going to Louisville to hear CJ or somesuch Chenier........will be good!!  Looking forward to it.  Need to get more presents for myself....note to self.   As a beautiful goddess...................which I feel myself to be, and I am so fortunate in that I look good, really good at 57, and I am not even half trying......I mean I am trying....but it is not consistent effort.....so now....I am just in the Goddess zone, so that everything I do naturally brings about Goddess results......awesome results.  I see myself as a lithe, tan, muscular, vibrant, energetic Goddess...............beautiful!  And so I have cut sugar and gluten out of my diet, although I do get some....from the chocolate bunny grahams.....which I love and need due to certain indulgences.........but my main focus is eating greens and fruit.....so much wonderful fruit this time of year........it started out way too early with strawberries, then moved on to raspberries, and now blueberries and cherries........I am looking forward to apricots and peaches.........nectarines......and eating arugula and avocado and tomatoes and blueberries and green smoothies.....

I am in love with plants....I have flowers and cacti, tomatoes, peppers, parsley, lettuces, tomatillos, watermelon, cantelope/muskmelon, zucchini and yellow crook neck squash, a cardoon, patio tomatoes in pots, kale, arugula, chard, and cilantro, not to mention a large glorious avocado plant, a rubber plant that is sprouting new leaves all over the place, 2 beautiful hanging baskets of flowering plants, a lovely fuschia, and a wonderful orangey million bells and a cool little wildflower that I must transplant this weekend.....it's all great.   And I am going to see about mulching other areas of the yard or getting rid of all of the newspapers I have accumulated in anticipation of such happenings........

life is good!!!

ciao bella!